So I am back in U.K. now, back to green lawns and unpredictable weather, to friends and ex's. I haven't even completely moved in yet, half of my things are still in storage and i am down with sore throat and fever, probably because of the weather change.
My dad just called me to see if i am alright, usually my family checks on me few times in a week, but now that i am kind of sick, the doctor and parent in them won't rest in peace if they don't talk to me everyday. But everytime my dad calls, he has this strange note of worry in his voice, it always bothers me. I have been out of India for 3 years now, it's not like i am completely naive about living alone.
Is it just a 'dad' thing? Or maybe it's just his voice, i don't know maybe i am imagining it to be worrisome because i always think they are over-protective of me. But let me assure you that my mother and father are the most liberal parents ever, it's just that no amount of freedom was ever good enough for me. If it was upto me I would forever roam around the world and not care about anything.
I would travel to different lands, meet new people, stay at caves and sleep under the stars. And then I would move to another land. Maybe it's my zodiac sign (Sagittarius) that makes me think like a nomad. But still when I feel hot I want an a/c or when I am cold I put on the heater, I wonder if I was a nomad I would have survived the hot desserts and the chilly nights.
I wonder what will make me happy,maybe it's a fountain that I haven't found yet. But something tells me that nothing can 'make' me happy, I can just be it.
I see people saying 'oh if I get those shoes I will be so happy' or 'if I can get a rich husband and a nice house my life is set, I will forever be happy', but once they get that, they will chase after other things that they feel will make them 'happy'. This is how we get caught in a vicious loop of finding something that is already there.
Maybe we all are running around eyes closed, like a mad chicken, to find the golden eggs, oblivious of the fact that we are the one producing it.
My dad just called me to see if i am alright, usually my family checks on me few times in a week, but now that i am kind of sick, the doctor and parent in them won't rest in peace if they don't talk to me everyday. But everytime my dad calls, he has this strange note of worry in his voice, it always bothers me. I have been out of India for 3 years now, it's not like i am completely naive about living alone.
Is it just a 'dad' thing? Or maybe it's just his voice, i don't know maybe i am imagining it to be worrisome because i always think they are over-protective of me. But let me assure you that my mother and father are the most liberal parents ever, it's just that no amount of freedom was ever good enough for me. If it was upto me I would forever roam around the world and not care about anything.
I would travel to different lands, meet new people, stay at caves and sleep under the stars. And then I would move to another land. Maybe it's my zodiac sign (Sagittarius) that makes me think like a nomad. But still when I feel hot I want an a/c or when I am cold I put on the heater, I wonder if I was a nomad I would have survived the hot desserts and the chilly nights.
"He who is really happy is happy everywhere, in a palace or in a cottage, in riches or in poverty, for he has
discovered the fountain of happiness which is situated in his own heart. As long as a person has not found
that fountain, nothing will give him real happiness.” ~Hazrat Inayat Khan
I wonder what will make me happy,maybe it's a fountain that I haven't found yet. But something tells me that nothing can 'make' me happy, I can just be it.
I see people saying 'oh if I get those shoes I will be so happy' or 'if I can get a rich husband and a nice house my life is set, I will forever be happy', but once they get that, they will chase after other things that they feel will make them 'happy'. This is how we get caught in a vicious loop of finding something that is already there.
Maybe we all are running around eyes closed, like a mad chicken, to find the golden eggs, oblivious of the fact that we are the one producing it.
indeed happiness rests in our own being....
ReplyDeletethe only problem is that the search within is a tad more difficult than the search without.... not as much coz of the 'difficulty', as it is coz of the 'novelty'.... given that man has been conditioned by his society that way.
loved the quote by hazrat inayat khan... :)
"Seek and you will not find, Seek Not and you will find it." ~ Lao Tzu
ReplyDeletethanks jalpari :)
ReplyDeletelovely quote dhyan :)
I fully agree with your concept that nothing other than our mind can make us happy. In the dynamic life the moments of happiness are endless. One need not run around searching for these moments. All we need to do is to enjoy those moments of happiness when nature gift them to us.
ReplyDeleteBut, unfortunately most people predefine happiness and start chasing it and ultimately end in distress.
I am really unable to believe that a young girl of your age has such a good understanding of life.
Thank you sir :)
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