Feeling Facts

Sometimes I look at people and I can’t believe that they are being real. It just can’t be, you are fake I want to scream, but then who am I to say that, I don’t know them through and through , it’s just something I feel and we live in a world where facts are important than feelings, it’s fair I guess. You can’t always trust your feeling can you? They just might be induced because of jealousy or ego problem or a bad childhood…the list is endless really. So many reasons not to trust your feelings.

Let me tell you, I am a cry baby when it comes to movies. I have cried almost in every movie, sometimes in comedy movies as well, just because I saw a ‘happy ending’. But life shows you crap and now I don’t cry as much, trying to be a tough cookie or whatever, as Count Dracula says in Van Helsing ‘No! I have no heart, I feel no love. Nor fear, nor joy, nor sorrow. I am hollow... and I will live forever’(insert heavy European accent).

 I think the last time I bawled like a baby was when I saw Cast Away, I posted about that already.

Yesterday I saw I Am Sam, those of you who haven’t seen the movie it’s about a character named Sam Dawson (played by Sean Penn), a mentally retarded father of a 8 year old girl trying to get custody of his child because the court deemed him incapable of being a good father.  

Yes, he seems incapable with the mental ability of a 7 year old trying to raise a 8 year old girl who won’t stop growing mentally like he did. Imagine what she could have gained with having a ‘normal’ father. The only reason for them to stay together was their relationship which no one can change; the love they shared could not be replicated by foster parents. 

I’m not going to rant off about the movie, but here again it’s fact above feelings. It’s a fact in the court that he is retarded and a single parent. It is a fact that he really has no ‘normal’ and ‘able’ friends to help him out. His only reason to fight was - his feelings.

There is this scene in the movie that stood out, when the little girl is asked by lawyer if she thinks that any other family could cater to her needs much better than her biological father and she replies ‘All you need is Love’. Feelings over fact? Considering love is something that you 'feel'.

But then isn’t feelings a fact of life? Then why think so much to act on them?  What is this need to polish everything we feel to conform to society? Why are feelings so neglected and yet it’s the only reason we live and fight and survive, because we can feel. Pleasure or pain everything we feel propels us forward in life. That is a fact. If you were numb you would never move. 

If you haven’t watched this movie please try to. It’s a good one. 

PS – I cried throughout the whole movie.  Evidently I can't be like Dracula, I still am fascinated by him.