New World

I see you smile
I see you ascend to the sky
Light all around you like the breath of an angel

You make me want to fly
spread my wings and dive
into the ocean
through the fluffy white clouds

But before I take a leap
I have to make some wings
I have to take them to the other side

When I am done
I'll see you in the new world

Bollywood is in America, right?

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I was listening to some Bollywood music when I saw this comment.

Dear Bollywood,

A word of advice. Please stop all the cheesiness in Bollywood movies. All this glitter, glam, and ghettoness does not make the movies any more interesting, "cooler", americanized.....whatever you are going for. In fact it is embarrassing! .Instead I Go back to your roots, or take a look back at the hindi movies from the 90s. Those were real true good hindi movies. This goes for India too. Us NRI's want to come to a India that is still India not something like the U.S.

Obviously my fellow youtuber here was feeling a little nostalgic and listening to new Bollywood song did not make him/her happy. So, what better way to express your feelings then to rant in the comment section?

Now I am not going to lie, sometimes I refrain from listening to Bollywood songs just because it’s too loud and you just don’t know what’s happening. There is an actor dancing with 10 other white girls, rapping like a black man in Punjabi, basically it’s a chaos in the name of music.

I am officially a NRI (non-resident Indian) but I don’t think like the nostalgic youtuber. One reason is I feel this person has been outside India for a very long time and a lot has changed since then. You will always remember of home the way you left it. Even when I leave my room and come back to find it clean I go berserk, so imagine if you leave your country and you come back to find it different.

But then it’s not just NRI’s is it? A lot of people don’t like this multi-cultural Bollywood. They wish it was all pure Indian , more songs running across the field, fake punching noises , the flowing saris yada yada yada. Bollywood is still making actors run across the field, only that the field is in Egypt and they are running around a pyramid. For some Indians this may be the only way to see pyramids (not like I have seen one in reality).

I don’t feel being ‘modern’ is wearing a tank top instead of a duppatta. But I do feel that tank tops are more comfortable. Lot of Bollywood movies are completely based in London, New York or Sydney, and why not? A lot of Indians have moved there as well.

They say movies reflect the society we live in. Bollywood movies only show the society Indian people have created. It was not created by the industry.  So I feel people should stop whining about everything being ‘westernised’ when they are the ones who are westernised (hello NRIs).

As for me, I am a child of globalisation, I love the old Bollywood classics and I also love the shining new ‘westernised’ Bollywood.

Why you should not date a Sagittarius man.

Let's talk about my favourite  topic - MEN! And this time it's extra special, it's not just men, it's fiery Sagittarius men.

On phone they are active, they talk a lot about anything and everything. They didn't hesitate to tell me their grande and noble ideals or what did they have for dinner.

And then, it's time for a date. The curtains are up! He is standing somewhere in the corner busy on his phone he looks at me and I expect a warm welcome. Instead he gives a small smile and starts walking next to me.

Dating him is like babysitting. He wants curtains to be closed, food to be perfect and halal, mind you. He is blunt and he misbehaves but the strange thing is, even though he is irritating the hell out of me, I can never really hate him.

As soon as I  think I have had enough and it's time to wrap up the show, he will do something very sweet and win me back again.

Once a Sagittarius man said to me 'I am looking for a nice relationship' and also 'I don't want to get married' all in one same night. I'm sorry what do you need a relationship for if you cannot even think of long time commitment? He has his reasons. He wants it so someone can close the curtains, bring him juice, order food for him (he will pay) and run around looking after him, while he sits and moans about everything.

When everything thing  is done  he will ask 'Why do you care about me?' and I have nothing to say. I didn't do it because I care, I did it because I am a nice person and I don't want to throw you out of my house. And also I think you are 5 year old kid in the body of a 20 year old boxer.

I crawl up next to him like a cat asking for affection and he looks uncomfortable, what is he so shy about we just had sex!

And then I remember, hey I am a Sagittarius girl! I probably bossed him around so he is scared of me, and I am so independent that the fact that he can't close a curtain by himself annoys me. And I should know, for us Sagittarius sex is easy, affection is not.

If Sagittarius men are baby, then Sagittarius women are little girls who try put their mothers lipstick and act all motherly only because she wants some attention.

Or maybe I just need a Gemini man who can talk to me all night long and still have some more left for next morning. But Gemini men are always available, as available as water in a desert.

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PS: I am not responsible for your Sagittarius man's behaviour, he could be nothing like this. If he is exactly like my description then we probably dated the same man.

Warriors of Light

There is a group of soldiers
Unnamed and unknown
we fight for you, for us, for light.

We stand together
When we stand alone.
Each with a candle,
To show you the way.

We have many names and many faces.
Many causes and many tongues.
Careless wanderers and disciplined sons.
But when we unite,
We are the warriors of light. 

Click Click!

I did some random photography in my new room.

R.I.P Steve Jobs

Feb 24 1955 - Oct 5 2011

I don't even use Apple, but this guy here is truly inspirational. Adopted child, college drop-out nothing stopped Steve Jobs to leave a mark on the world. 

Just one of those stories which makes you realise if a man has made his mind nothing can really stop him. 

Jobs was suffering from cancer and passed away yesterday surrounded by his family. 

“Being the richest man in the cemetery doesn’t matter to me … Going to bed at night saying we’ve done something wonderful… that’s what matters to me.” [ Steve Jobs, The Wall Street Journal, May 25, 1993]

Coulrophobia

Last night me and my friends were talking over wine, cigarettes and cheese puffs when one of my friend brought up the urban legend of Lithuanian paedophile. Apparently everyone knows it and it is one of the reason why some people are mortally afraid of clowns, besides the fact that clowns are way too happy and that itself is kind of scary.

If you are not aware of the story, read it here, I insist. 

Today morning I was cooking downstairs in the kitchen, some good old eggs and bacon, and I remembered the paedophile clown. I had to look back my shoulder in every few seconds to check if I am alone and to think of it why on Earth will i fear a paedophile when I am not even underage anymore. Luckily my housemate woke up because the fire alarm decided to went off for no damn reason and I was saved from the non-existing clown in my kitchen. 

It's one of those stories that just get's you and leaves you bewildered. To get it out of my system I diverted my mind and did some photography just around my new room, I will post those pictures later, I don't want to post pictures of my room in the same place I talk about some European paedophile clown. 

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P.S - If you haven't figured out yet, Coulrophobia is a fear of clowns. 

Enlightenment for Sale

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A year ago I started looking at videos from a 'swami' or a 'spiritual master' in youtube (because youtube is not just for listening to Beyonce). He seemed wise, interesting, practical and funny. In noway I consider myself to be a follower of anyone, I have reached a point where I don't need a master but I learn more from within me and around me. But let's not go to my spiritual craziness, let's talk about someone else's. 

Few months later when I returned back to India, I came to know that this 'swami' was in a middle of a scandal for sexual harassment. And then more stories started coming out, that he is a fraud yada yada yada. 

This is not the first 'spiritual guru' who got involved in scandals, mostly something very sexual ones. Maybe because people consider sex to be very scandalous. You know the normal Indian mentality of 'sex is a taboo', yea sure mate, you were dropped in by angels on your mother's lap. I won't go there, that's a whole another story. But if it isn't sex, then it's money or fooling people with fake tricks. The list goes on. 

It's not unknown that in today's alleged 'fast-paced' world spirituality is a growing business. I understand when people make occult a business. Occult is basically astrology, tarot, witchcraft. I almost get it when people charge money for a tarot reading, because it's like a service you provide, it's not really charity . Please understand occult is a medium of spiritual connection. It's like buying a book to learn what's in it.

I read tarot cards, but I never charge for it only because it's not my occupation. I also don't do it all the time and for everyone, it can get very exhausting to keep constant connection with the guides and cosmos. So if astrologers and tarot readers ask for money and you believe in it, then it is justified, unless you are a fraud and you don't know anything about occult. 

But is it right to ask people money for 'enlightenment'?  What if Buddha did that? What if he went to houses saying 'give me 1 bag of rice and only then I will show you Nirvana'.  I am sure enlightenment is not like buying a book, it is not a service, it is a journey. Maybe someone wise can give you peace of mind, show you different side of the world. But does it make sense to give money to someone asking them to awaken you.  Remember that one Shri Shri ( multiplied by zillion ) whatever guru who used materialise gold chains out of thin air for the rich followers and ashes for the poor? If he was a master who could materialise gold chain then why not just give it all away and end poverty? 

I am not against people following others. There are different stages of a soul's journey and in one point everyone is, was or will be a follower, and then a master. But are people following the right master. Can you be truly enlightened if you are in the same loop as others, a loop of give and take or as we say 'business'. An enlightened soul will never ask for anything, he/she will seek nothing, but just be. His/her goal is not to help people or give them knowledge but that's happens along the way. They don't hold wisdom, they become it. 

I feel this topic has been raised by many, and this is why certain people always think anyone 'spiritual' is kidding themselves and anyone who says 'I want to help' is only trying to sound nice. There is no simple and plain goodness, just good business. That's a sad thought. 

Emotional Deadline

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We all have deadlines in our life, some professional ones and some emotional ones. Sometimes I feel it's easy to recover from professional deadlines but it's much more easier to ignore emotional deadlines.

I have a deadline for everything in my mind. Not because I am very organised, you'll just know how sloppy I am looking at my room. I have a deadline for university work, a deadline that warns me that I only have 10 cigarettes left and I need to buy more, a deadline for food, friends, men ...basically everything.

Right now I am dealing with an emotional deadline, it ends very soon and believe me it's a silly little thing, as silly as a needle that pricks me every time I try to deviate my mind. This certain someone who needs me reply me back soon or else my ego will take over me until I just can't hold my patience and put that someone's name under 'fail' list.

The thing is I can't blame on anyone but myself in these situations. In the end I am the one who is expecting something, and we all know what wise people say 'expectations is a key to a very sad life'.

But can people actually live without expectations? Even though my cosmic knowledge of things tells me that time is now, and now is all that ever is, was and will be, why do I expect things to happen? If my friends was going through the same thing I would give them some profound advice like 'you can't control someone else's action' or 'what will happen will happen' and all that is true.

It's also true that I cannot stop thinking about it, it's frustrating and I want it to happen now!

And since this person has no clue I have a deadline, it won't affect their behaviour. In time I will ignore my emotional deadline and with the leftover of hope I will set a new deadline. And so the loop goes on and on....even when I know better, it never stops.