I have a secret that I will take with me to the grave.
Through out our lives, there is so much that goes on in our head. There are so many things we do that we think should be buried deep within us, it could be anything, stealing, affairs, addictions, how different are they from each other anyway? But I truly believe in letting it all out before I pass on from this world.
So, you see? When I say that I have a secret that I'll take with me to the grave, I am fighting against myself and what I stand for. Honesty, fearlessness, courage...I am willing to turn of all the light around to protect the darkness I hold in my heart.
I have been taught by my guides that one must never take that darkness with them to the beyond. To start a fresh journey old luggage must be dealt with. It has no use. In fact if you decide to take the same luggage, the same burden with you, you will travel the same road again and again until the weight is gone.
Today I stand at crossroads. I feel like a student who left the school but all her knowledge is of no use as she has succumbed to the force of this physical reality.
I don't know if I can enjoy the warmth of the sun when I have given my heart to the dark night.
Secrets haunt you. You can't forget it or ignore it. It's a vicious circle, one day it'll stand in front of you, waiting for you to confront. How can the past be left behind if you choose to carry it with you.
It scares me to think that a part of me is out of control, reckless, inappropriate and dangerous.
Am I the predator or the victim?
Through out our lives, there is so much that goes on in our head. There are so many things we do that we think should be buried deep within us, it could be anything, stealing, affairs, addictions, how different are they from each other anyway? But I truly believe in letting it all out before I pass on from this world.
So, you see? When I say that I have a secret that I'll take with me to the grave, I am fighting against myself and what I stand for. Honesty, fearlessness, courage...I am willing to turn of all the light around to protect the darkness I hold in my heart.
I have been taught by my guides that one must never take that darkness with them to the beyond. To start a fresh journey old luggage must be dealt with. It has no use. In fact if you decide to take the same luggage, the same burden with you, you will travel the same road again and again until the weight is gone.
Today I stand at crossroads. I feel like a student who left the school but all her knowledge is of no use as she has succumbed to the force of this physical reality.
I don't know if I can enjoy the warmth of the sun when I have given my heart to the dark night.
Secrets haunt you. You can't forget it or ignore it. It's a vicious circle, one day it'll stand in front of you, waiting for you to confront. How can the past be left behind if you choose to carry it with you.
It scares me to think that a part of me is out of control, reckless, inappropriate and dangerous.
Am I the predator or the victim?
Sin, guilt, neurosis; they are one and the same, the fruit of the tree of knowledge.- Henry Miller
Seriously, this is deep.
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ReplyDeleteRuhi,
ReplyDeleteinterestingly, I have been thinking about this for a few weeks. There is a secret cellar inside all of us, it is dark and no one has access but us.
You have so clearly, profoundly and insightfully told the whole thing.Indeed, there is a secret that all of us have in our hearts and would go to grave with us.
Raza
Thank you Raza.
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