Friday, 6 April 2012

Alone

My housemates are in celebrating Easter with their parents, so I get the house to myself. It's quite nice actually. Not to close to bathroom door all the time, I can talk as loudly as i want to, I can sing without being told I am out of tune. It is a nice change.

I have been wondering what loneliness is. More often than not, I choose to be alone. I am an introvert (INFJ) so I always need to recharge myself my having some alone time. But I guess alone time does not equal the feeling of being lonely.

Webster's dictionary describes lonely as "being without company". One can be alone if no one is around but can feel alone in midst of a crowd. So it's really about being alone or feeling alone.Sometimes being alone helps you figure out yourself, it clears your head and gives you a fresh perspective. To be in company with yourself is very comforting. On the other hand,  feeling alone tears you apart. Nothing is more disturbing than feeling lonely, it's like you need to save yourself from yourself. If only someone can hear the screams in your head.

But often I find that the I cannot save a person who feels lonely. No matter how much I try to guide them out of the darkness, sooner or later they will leave my hand and run back to it again. And I have discovered that it is not me who holds the key to get them out of that dark room. They key has always been in their pocket.

The light is always within.


4 comments:

  1. the light is within, how i adore that. i also love my alone time. as i've gotten older, i enjoy my alone time more and more. i do love company, but only when i want to dip into social situations. i enjoy my own company very much. enjoy your time with yourself.

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  2. same for me...i have to be in certain mood to be social..i do value my alone time a lot.

    Thanks for commenting Ed :)

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  3. “The light is always within”....... Wonderful words! Unfortunately many people fail to realise this and feel alone in midst of crowds.

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