Lost or Found

How to cope up with loss?

the only way to get over it is to accept it...you would ask why?......why should I ever get over my loved once? Because only then you find peace, and they find peace. This world we live in not the one to be still, change is the only constant thing...every thing is moving...even when you believe you are still, you are moving...so accept it flow with it....
nothing is ever lost...just moved to some other place...nothing really goes way..in stillness...you will feel it everywhere...blooming and falling is part and parcel of this gift which we call life. So accept your loss...cry and smile...live !

Meaning Behind Existence

i have been watching this guys videos from some time now and he is really good. Anyone who is soul searching, more like searching the roots of existence must watch him. There is a good chance that your thoughts might resonate with him.

http://www.youtube.com/user/AstralBooBaby

I really admire such people who wants to get out and give people a sense of true reality in this world of illusion.

My Tattoo

Got it done from Hell to Pay tattoo shop in Camden town, London, few months ago (November 2010)

F.A.Q

Why did i get this tattoo?
Because i wanted to. I have been waiting for the right time, i thought i should do it on my 18th birthday, instead i did it a month before 19th birthday. People keep saying i will change when i grow up, worry about money and security more, will get caught in a dead end job just like them. I wanted to get this tattoo to remind me who i am and my values and purpose in life just in case i do end up being like them i would at least try to get out of it. I love body art and i just knew i wanted a tattoo.

The meaning behind this tattoo-
The circle in between in a pentagram, five-pointed star an ancient symbol used by pagans and also for witchcraft. Five points stand for Earth, Air, Water, Fire and the Spirit or the Spirit World. It represents balance, harmony and magick. I am a spiritual person so of course this is a symbol very dear to me, i practised witchcraft and i am very much into occult.
An inverted pentagram is used for Satanism, i have no idea what they do in it, neither do i want to dwell on it. But don't mistake my tattoo for it as you can see the pentagram in my tattoo is not inverted.

Did it hurt?
Yes, but not much, nothing that you cannot handle. But pain would depend on person to person and also the body part, like ribs would hurt a lot (any bony part) back was not so bad. It felt like very hot water trickling down my back.

Do i plan on getting more tattoos?
Yes. Maybe one or two more. I have one in mind, but I'm not sure when I'll go through with it.

Would i recommend this tattoo shop?
This is my first tattoo so it's not like i have been in a dozen of tattoo shop, but i had a very good time and everyone in the shop was very nice and helpful, so yes, you might want to check it out.

Mask

The only feeling

That drives me to live

Has finally abandoned me

My cries

Has been muffled by my silent screams

I have to hide it all and just try to move on

Until something better comes along

It’s that hope in which I cradle my future in

Reality seems unreal

The hope is hammering my head

I want to end this pain

But it’s the pain I’m living for

It’s the pain we all live for.

When I see those happy faces

I wonder if its happiness or ignorance.

Stand Still

its been a while
since I had the will to do anything else
but think of you
and now I wonder
if I can ever get out of this mess I made
my life is moving
and I keep standing still

is there an easy way to let you know
the pain I feel is more than u know
I feel all alone
In a crowded road
So many wonders in the world
But all I do is wonder about us

I feel as if my heart is blocked
And the clock has stopped
To the time when you left
And there is nothing to do
But dream of dreams…without you.

Surreal Love

Dry those tears, my friend

they are the prove that our love has come to an end

suck it all up, play it well

let the reality melt

we stay alive in this surreal world

I don’t ask much

just never say you never loved

I don’t need it to be true

I just need you

someday I will wake up

and find that you are really gone

so i'll dream with open eyes

don't say anything tonight

i'm in love with your lies

Falling For Eternity

You fight to win

you hurt to win

why do you try to win

when you are born to lose it all

you lie to mend her heart

you cheat to break his heart

why do you do it all

when the heart has to stop beating someday

if we can all just sit beside ourself

stare back at the mirror within

in the whirlpool of world you'll see

there is nothing to win and lose

burn your worries into ashes

bury yourself and rise again

to fall for eternity

Winter

fly with the wind
like the autumn leaf
to the coldest place in you
cry the summers gone
the grass isnt green even on the other side

lying on the snow
making butterfly wings
but you cant fly still
laughing in your face
and struggling within

standing on the melting snow
wishing the time to stay still
found my peace with pain
not waiting for wonders
loving the numbness within

-Ruhi